my roommate.
he's becoming kind of um i dunno, annoying.
Every time I'm engrossed in something, and clearly focused on something, he always comes in and starts TALKING. I can't seem to do anything on my computer or tv with out him having to go into some random convo.
like the other night i just got the new hulk movie and was watching it, he comes in and is like, "oh this reminds me of a training exercise i once did" cause he used to be in the army.
i said, "oh that's cool, heh" *continues watching*
I assume he's just making a funny comment, cause it was the battle scene with the army vs. hulk, and obviously assuming he's joking, im thinkin to myself , "haha, it does? you fought hulk or something?" :p
but then he keeps going, and he was talking about driving a hum v.
im like :o he's being serious! he's actually going into an old story, i'm saying to myself, DUDE I'M IN THE MIDDLE OF AN ACTION SCENE GTFO
then he continues, "yeah man! it was never this intense or anything we only drove like in circles and stuff but yeah..." there was more but i don't remember it because i was trying to WATCH THE MOVIE. he always does that when i play a game or am on the Internet reading or something. just starts conversing at me. i would listen if i wasn't engrossed in something else, and i do talk to the guy so it's not like i blow him off. He manages to spark convos when i'm not engrossed and at those times i'll chat back, but I just wish he had some respect for my privacy since I can't put any of my computer or tv in my room, I don't ever come into his room and bother him. I guess he feels since I'm in the living room that means I'm up for conversation at all times.
I know this must make me sound like a douche, but I am really nice with the guy. I just wish he'd be a little more respectful, but he probably doesn't even realize he's doing it.

oh and something that's annoying. my mom had bought me a bottle of soco back when she was down, and my roommate asked for a shot, i said sure, and he ended up drinking the whole bottle that night after i went to bed. i had no idea until the next day when he told me he did this, i was like o_o geez. But it was cool cause he went and repaid me by getting this extra huge-size bottle of the stuff.
I was like, "whoa cool thanks man!" cause he repaid me with double!
Now i don't drink much and i was planning on saving the drink for Halloween parties or something. anyway, i get up this morning and i see the whole huge ass bottle is empty and in the trash. i then realize that my roommate hasn't left this morning, as he's always gone before i am.
I'm pretty sure he drank all of it and called into work with a hangover. I wonder if he'll come home the next day with a gallon of soco to repay! hah :P
at this point i don't care if he repays me, i just think it's stupid.
the guy is going through some personal stuff i'm pretty sure, and I'm being supportive when i need to be, as much a roommate is entitled to i guess? it's kind of a mess. and to be honest, i don't really know the guy. so it's always kinda weird. and i'm just a roommate i'm not entitled to this stuff. right?
Now I'm usually chill with most people, but i guess too much of someone is bad, and I'm afraid its coming to that.

Yeah donuts. And yeah i dont know which way i should spell it. But the point is are they going to exist any more? Like i see donut shops closing down everywhere. Like Krispy Kreme went out of business last year. Or something although i still see their donuts in like convenient stores. Is this true? I'm not sure.
I also noticed some dunkin donuts going out of business but i haven't been to one of those since i was probably like six or something.

I'm not really sad or pissed off about it. I haven't really eaten donuts in like a year i think, wait it was like 2 YEARS ago. maaann...  and that was from the KK by AZ mills. Which is now an "el pollo loco".
It was cool how the fresh krispy kremes would like melt in your mouth. They're quite a tasty pastry yes, and i know they're like super bad for you.
It makes sense why though, at least i think it does. I think people are just catching on that it isn't the ideal breakfast for you anymore. I'm sure some people still actively choose it but not like before where it was kind of blindly. They're just not good for you and people see that. I seriously haven't had a donut in a long time. Like not one of those grocery store ones either. They always suck and you KNOW they do. You hafta go to a donut store. I find the best ones are the "not chain ones" with the exception of KK but it doesn't exist anymore so no worries. Although, if you manage to find some KK's inside like a grocery store? i wouldn't get them just because they are KK, they've been sitting there for a while. Not to mention the time they have been sitting on the truck. You're better off.

So yeah no real point to this post. Just thought i'd talk about what i was thinking about.
And because i never post anymore i thought i would do it. I felt like doing it. I want to do it more, and i should.

I found out that smash bros was coming out tonight and not sunday night. SUPER SPECIAL! :DDDD
haha

Yeah i'm heading to gamestop around 7 for the tournament, sign up is at 8 and it starts at 10. and the game is mine at 12.

As for the tourney goes, i got to play a lot of brawl at gdc. We played it everynight. So i know how the game feels. I will stick with yoshi for the most part since i did the best with him and i know how to kill with him the best. Brawl is different in trying to get rid of your opponent. There is diminishing return so you can't do things like spam the "cstick over" with marth and hope to win. It's cool, but for newbies it'll be hard to figure out what's going on. Also multiple airdodging is cool.
I also have experience with the nunchuck and the wiimote combo on controls. Not many have that experience either. You can't use cube controls.
I feel like this will give me some slight edge over the compitition, to get at least somewhat far. We'll see.
The worst could always happen. I could get stuck on this stage ( yeah this stage is in brawl) it sucks! cause all link's gotta do is spam. And there's gonna be a lot of links. you know there will be. So this is my greatest fear. Run away til it's one on one!!!!
haha
Anyway time to prepare!! I'll update with the results win or lose.
Kbye

I should post more!

I will come back tomorrow and post some stuff.
But update for now is Brawl is exactly 3 days and 25 minutes away (as i post this)

So I have to write about an adventure in videogaming... sorta.
I've been lately trying to collect all the Metal Gear games, minus the original ones for the MSX (metal gear 1, 2) so basically all the solids and acids. So before I came to texas I had all but 1 for ps1 and 3 for ps2.

Whenever i'm in texas I always like to make my rounds. I guess people in lubbock just don't appreciate good games. You can find a lot of rare games and good finds here. You just have to know where to look.
I start my quest with good ol' ralph's records here in lubbock, which is this awesome place where you can find used media. They have everything from vinyl to box sets of shows and what not. And of course they have video games, games all the way back to the original NES. I even saw a lynx for sale for $20. They have two locations here in lubbock, so whenever I go I always check both.
They didn't have any techno on vinyl though, at either location. :/
So anyway,
I went to the older one first, which i've always gone to more because they 're the one that has been around more and their volume is just larger, but that doesn't always mean everything. So at the first one i found tales of symphonia and romacing saga and unlimited saga for like $12 a piece. i ended up putting them all back. While i hear great things about tales of symphonia i really dont think i'll be playing it anytime soon. and the only reason i was going to get the sagas is because they are square enix and i want to collect all their titles. I would most likely never play those to be honest. i just wanted them to own. I did find granstream saga for $5 which i did get. and may play in the future. I thought that was a pretty good deal because i almost bought it off of a dude at UAT for 15. yah...
anyway back to the story,
So I put the games back BECAUSE! i found star trek: TNG season 4 for sale for $40, and it was in good condition too and a good deal. So i totally got that instead. I need to get season 3 still, yes. and i will, but i couldn't pass this up. SO! The next day i went to go check out the other ralphs and other stores to spend some christmas money and stuff. I had stopped at circuit city a couple days back while we were waiting on my cousin in michael's next door, to check out their stock. I don't really like Circuit City, but they randomly have insanely awesome finds and great deals on games that are still in "new" condition. For instance I found MGS3: Snake Eater for $9.99. I'm like ok that's freaking amazing. So I said i'll go look around and come back, expecting to find a better deal somewhere else!? haha i dunno why i do that. I was half telling myself that that was dumb and i wouldn't be saving much more and i should just get it. anyway i waited, and then on the day i was back in town i stopped back by there to pick it up because best buy didn't even have it and it was $12 used at ralph's (no). So i went to purchase it and it rang up for like 8.60 something after tax. I'm like... wow that wasn't even the 10 dollars they advertised. Awesome.
So I happily made my way to the other ralphs, to go see what i could find. At this point my quest for MGS1 had been a failure.
I walk into the store and check out the counter to see what they have in box sets and gba/ds games. A little bit to the left they have some Wii games for sale; "let's see what they ha...    Zelda: Twilight Princess! and for only $20!!!!"  I was kind of amazed, i asked to see the the condition of it, and it was pristine. Like no scratches, case and manual intact. And $20. It's still $50 in the stores. I bought it. haha i didn't even have a wii and i bought it. I mean i planned on getting one soon, like in january hoping that they'd be for sale some where. It's been ridiculous trying to find one to buy. I'm pretty sure Nintendo's been playing the market though. Who knows. Anyway I have Zelda set it aside for me and i go browse a little more. I look through the SNES and PS2 games and then i finally see the ps1 section there's only like 10 - 15 games there. i look through them all, they're all old old games or games i have no interest in.       except... i get to the very end of the stack and there is this game face down and i pick it up and turn it over... METAL GEAR SOLID.     

I found it.

It was like something out of a movie or book or something. and it was only $8. And again also in great condition!
It was such an awesome day of finds.

Now thoroughly pleased with the finds, I make my way to best buy to see what I can spend my gift card on there. I go look for some star trek and some music that i want but they don't have any of that. So i head to video games...

They have Wiis.

They have Wiis! where ! how! especially at this time! Day after Christmas! They're just sitting by this booth stacked up there and I'm like, Now's my chance, It IS 5 days til january when i wanted to get one. I also figure i might not have another chance too. There were 12 stacked up and i walk around to go think about it, i go back a minute later there are 7-8 left. i decided to pick one up to carry around while i thought just to play it safe. It was a good Idea because there were like 4 left after I made my decision. They guy said he started out with like 50 that morning. I was like :o whoa.
So I got a wii. and the score with finding zelda was all the better.

Quest Successful!!

kinda short though :/

i finally can live in an apartment again! i haves a place to go!

K BYE

i finally got a response to a graphic design position!
I hope things continue to go well

so i ran into danny yesterday hadn't seen him in a while, it was a good time. and i got to play guitar hero in front of a live audience of 2 people. but it was still cool. hard to do though because there was like double lag with the wireless controller then the hd tv. and they didn't have progressive scan set up. i even tried to calibrate the lag which was off by 124ms. but it didn't seem to help. so instead i just temporarily got used to hitting the buttons right before the note hits the circles. it worked but kinda made it hard on solos. i really want to play normally but we'll see. it's not a burning desire. but i still like it.

But yeah working on finding a new place and hopefully i can actually have a roommate. I think i have a good chance at that. If not then i'll just have to jump into a studio or something. it's getting down to the wire.

I started posting my videos on youtube, nothing to amazing. but its still a video i took. and it turned out good for the profile pic too! maybe i'll start vlogging. maybe i'll become a YT celebrity, and end up on a late night talk show. We will see >.>

I kind of have the dream of making a viral video. but i kinda don't want to do it alone. i think a collective collaboration will be much more profitable or rather more probable.

also:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XU2EtLHVoiI

i had forgotten things because i was caught up in the changes life had been throwing at me. i was seemingly secure because i felt stable in the things around me, but they were temporary comforts.
When change came i apparently wasn't ready. I knew it was on its way but i never imagined it to be like it was. So i freaked out, i unleashed what i hate about me. you know, the insecurities. everyone's got them, everyone hates em. They shut me down. I didn't want to accept change because i saw what was coming. i tried taking what seemed to be an easy way out. I denied it all, and tried to create a new state. one similar to the previous one i was in. One that would comfort me like before. It was irrational.
truth is, i was afraid. I kept trying to "create" and it only caused problems. I wanted it to go according to my standards, which no longer acknowledged harmony. I felt if i had control of it all then it would flow smoothly. But that was foolish, i understand now.

I'm still learning so much.

I'm getting my head on straight, letting go of my pride, focusing on what really matters. Things are forever changing, and I need to be ready because things are moving on to a much larger scale, at an accelerating rate.
More change is on its way, I know this. It's life, it's growing up.
I want to be prepared.
I may not exactly understand things when they first arrive, or what exactly to do when presented with them. But i think, after a revision in my thinking/mindset (which has already begun), i will be able to handle the future situations with more astuteness.
I'm ready world.

what is up?

i feel like watching some mst3k. but which one? well hell i haven't seen any of them in a good while so any will work i'd suppose. Yes, i'ma get on that!

All my friends are away! I have nothing to do. I would be playing FFXI right now if I had my new card, cause dammit i have so much time right now and that's what you need to play that game, cause my account got cancelled cause of the previous card being inactive, they couldn't bill my monthly fee.
But geez i can't cause MY    CARD    IS    STILL    NOT    HERE. @_@

I'm so _____________________________________

s'bout time i wrote something eh? Yeah i've got a lot to talk about but i've been doing it other ways.

I wish my debit card would get here arleady. It's been like two weeks now, and if it doesn't get here this time i'm gonna request they use another mailing source not the USPS because apparently they seem to not believe me when i say my address is what it is. Whatever. I need that thing! AND i can't play FFXI without it! they cancelled my account since it was disabled. I've been watching star trek in the mean time.

You're probably wondering why I have all this free time, well it's cause i'm in between jobs atm.
I have an interview at the Coffee Bean tomorrow and hopefully i will be hired. They know me and how i am, and i have experience with this kind of job, so i have no worries. I'm confident and i think that will win it over.


I went by coldstone today to turn in my uniform and get my check from my last weeks working there, and of course gil (the owner/boss/mainguy guy) was there, and he was like, "so where are you working now?? i was like, "the coffee bean..." even though i don't have the job yet. I don't want them to know that. it's also sort of none of his business either. He just wanted to make me feel bad cause his store is a mess. At least that's what it feels like.
I mean i kinda feel bad for gil because everything seems to be going wrong at his store, like water leaks and things needing to be replaced, and workers leaving. But why do you think they keep leaving? It also has to do with a lot of corporate changes that coldstone has done, it's getting really expensive, which leads to everyday people, people who get ice cream and thats a lot of people, to not want to leave tips.
Now that may sound a little selfish, but it was promised to us, and when we budget it in and it doesn't come, i gots to start looking elsewhere.
I also left cause i'm tired of having to deal with all of his problems, they flow down through to the workers and its not cool. It's just not a good place to be right now. So i'm glad to say good bye. I had a lot of fun working there over the year+ that i'd been there. But it's not what it used to be and the people who made it what it was just aren't there, cept Greg, whom deserves better.
Anyway good luck to them! I wish them the best, I do.
and
Wish ME luck on my interview! :D 

ok so yeah i fell for a scam. Or what is seemingly turning out to be one. FUCK I'm kicking myself.
ok so i go to the internet and search for local jobs. After browsing i come across the ad that says be movie extras and get upto 250 a day, im like, seems sketchy but i'll give em a call. So after the guy upsells his program to me i wind up, uncomfortably, paying 39 dollars for their bookings/casting agency service called Talent 6. I can't access my account til this morning. I get on there and there is nothing around here like the fucker told me. It's either shit for models or unpaid crap. SO i called them back and told them look i want my refund, i told them it just wasn't working out for me and wasn't going to adapt to my schedule. They were all assfucks and kept trying to convince me to stay and extend my trial period. I was like, look, i just want my money back. And also! when i called they were like we can't do that. I'm like, WHAT!? "our system is down and i don't know when we can have it up" so i called back again and talked to another guy. My call then got dropped twice, which i think was a ruse to make me believe that they were having extreme difficulties over there. So the second guy told me to call back in like 2-3 hours, i called back immediately and talked to another guy. He said he would call me back and he did. And i talked to him he tried to convince me to stay, and extend and all that, and i was like, "I'd just respect it if you'd refund my money", he replied in a "fine! fine..." kind of attitude and said here's your confirmation number and expect 7-10 business days for the refund.
I swear if i don't get my money back by the 9th of july? I'm dropping legal action on their asses. I already called my bank and told them the situation and they said they would be able to file disputes if they didn't do as they said they would. So my bank has my side.

I just feel like a total fuck up for going through with this! I knew it from the minutes the guy forcibly got my card number from me! Gah i should have known, it was like they were punching me in the face saying fuck you!, and i was like "k".
You live and learn I guess, I just wish SO BAD that i had googled them first. Dammit dammit dammit.

-Edit-

I found some info from the BBB apparently---- I called my bank and cancelled my debit card number so they can't make any unauthorized transactions. Fuckers...

Customer Experience

Based on BBB files, this company has an unsatisfactory record   

BBB Definition:

unsatisfactory  record - A company has an "unsatisfactory business performance record" with the Bureau is based on the experiences reflected in BBB files. This file condition results when the company has failed to resolve or respond to complaints, repeatedly failed to respond or resolve issues in a timely manner, failed to resolve the underlying issues for a pattern.              

BBB Definition:

pattern - More than 2 complaints involving the same allegations usually within 12 months that are significant in relation to the company's size and volume of business.                      

 of complaints, failed to honor their commitment to mediate or arbitrate disputes or honor mediated agreements or arbitrated decisions, failed to substantiate, modify or discontinue false advertising claims that are challenged by the BBB, or failed to discontinue unauthorized use of the BBB name and logo, a Federally protected trademark.                                      

 with the Bureau due to failure to respond to one or more complaints and or two or more otherwise unresolved complaints. However the business has resolved most complaints presented to the bureau.

Consumers reported having a difficult time cancelling their membership and getting refunds with Casting Talent Network or Search For Talent. Consumers are offered a 7 or 14 day free trial period; they can cancel within that time for a full refund. According to company literature, cancellations must be made by phone and a member can cancel at any point with no further obligation. When consumers try to cancel by phone, they have difficulties such as being told they cannot cancel, being kept on hold and getting hung up on. In some cases, new charges appear on their statement from a company named True Rewards. In most cases, complaints sent to the company by the bureau have been resolved

And i got hung up on just like this things says!!!!!!!! Exactly what happened!

The Bureau processed a total of 216 complaints about this company in the last 36 months, our standard reporting period. Of the total of 216 complaints closed in 36 months, 56 were closed in the last year. Customer Experience

Based on BBB files, this company has an unsatisfactory record

Unsatisfactory  record - A company has an "unsatisfactory business performance record" with the Bureau is based on the experiences reflected in BBB files. This file condition results when the company has failed to resolve or respond to complaints, repeatedly failed to respond or resolve issues in a timely manner, failed to resolve the underlying issues for a pattern.

pattern - More than 2 complaints involving the same allegations usually within 12 months that are significant in relation to the company's size and volume of business.    

 of complaints, failed to honor their commitment to mediate or arbitrate disputes or honor mediated agreements or arbitrated decisions, failed to substantiate, modify or discontinue false advertising claims that are challenged by the BBB, or failed to discontinue unauthorized use of the BBB name and logo, a Federally protected trademark.

I'ts like 430 and im still most awake.
I took an involuntary nap at like 530 and now im like sooo awake. i dont want to be cause i want to be up  and ready for tomorrow. I gots plans!

Also i've been having weird dreams lately. I think its cause im stressed out and like on edge about stuff. I feel weird too.

Posting to the journal! Haven't wrote in a while cause i haven't been in the mood to sit down and write, yet all i've been doing lately is sitting down. I feel like such a waste lately. I want to hear back from best buy already and i'm tired of the stone. I just feel weird kind of.
It's kind of like homesick. I haven't felt this way in a long long time. I believe it to be the feeling of change that stems from me getting older and facing more and more of reality. I'm ready for it, by all means, its just... I want security. I mean who doesn't, right?
I'm tired of having to rely on my mom every now and then for money when I don't get paid enough. I wish she would stop claiming me on her taxes so I could get better finacial aid. But she can't afford to. So it messes everything up. I'm not mad at her or anything i just want it to be easier.
Nobody said it was supposed to I know, but a man can wish nonetheless. I strive to be more independent each day.

I'm so ready to go to school this fall. I really hope I'm able to get in this semester at ASU. They need my transcripts and SPC, my old college, probably still hasn't sent them. I had to send them a written letter. They couldn't just do it over the phone. It was really dumb. And i thought it weird that they didn't want my UAT stuff. It might be cause i'm still enrolled there? I'm not signed up for classes however... I should probably tell someone my plans, heh. I love UAT i'm gonna miss it. But my time there is done. I want to broaden my horizons some more. Not that techonology isn't broad. It is! It's just more of a hobby =] and i want to pursue what i'm truly good at.

I really hope best buy calls me tomorrow, i want answers! i guess i'll know by friday, but if i don't know by then i'll be like!!! >:|   not cool!

I'm gonna head up to ASU tomorrow to talk to some people about my transcripts, transfer credits, classes, enrollment, and lots of things. I have all day tomorrow. So It should be grand.

and it's only been two days and i'm like  ; ;

So yeah the part about the pearl or diamond choice crossed my mind. But i picked pearl cause everyone else was getting diamond(I think for that reason too).

And i was like the girl looks awesome! the guy looks... what the hell?? 
Guess what? Pat picked the girl. He had to answer the question that the game asks you, "Are you a guy or a girl?"

Its true, i never read a lot of the text. I just talk to people til they give me my free items. I already know how to play this game.

As for Bidoof. Nobody likes him, everyone's like ?? D: what the hell is this thing? I used him though... he evolves into an even stupider looking pokemon btw. But he's alright to use. I caught another one and made it the HM slave. It has Rock Smash, Surf, Rock Climb, and Strength. ha

Never liked Zubat or Geodude. This comic is so amazingly true, i still can't get over it.

And i can't take team galactic seriously, they are dumb. If they don't want to fail they shouldn't be like "i will stop you with my pokemon!..." and then be like, "well i lost, i guess i have to let you past this top secret door now."
Apparently pokemon battles govern and rule the way of life in that world.

I haven't gotten to use the GTS because my stupid wireless never ever ever connects to any hotspot ever. It's got to be super specific for it to work and i can never find that dumb ass connection. So i may never get online with it. But i have heard about, and seen people put up ridiculous trades like that.

And lastly i hate monkeys. In all forms ever. Lonnie's friend Joey brought up a good point, "When the monkey poos, does it light on fire?" You gotta wonder, and so did they. :P
I am playing the game cause i have only played the first one. So to me its only my second time around. Well i did play silver, but i didn't want to finish it for some reason. The game is fun, but it is ridiculous at times.

goin to texas to be with the family. I'll be back hopefully this weekend. But i don't know.
Its all a major bummer.

on the bright side of things i got all my cds today. This music is so good.

I got an interview at Best Buy!!! YEAH!!!!

ok so at work today, while it was I was makin waffles. This nice elderly couple came in and ordered some ice cream.

When they were paying out the Mr. said,

"So what's your major?"
I replied, "Well, i'm actually in the process of changing, i was in Digital Art but I'm gonna go into Sociology."
He says, "Have you thought about anthropology?"
I'm like, "Yeah actually I have."
He says, "well that way you can take whatever you want and it's easier for you to become a counselor." or something like that
I'm like " :o "  
I, *while thinking in an astonished mannor* "Where did this guy come from?", said, "that's actually what i've been considering"
(That was a basic summary of the conversation) - Like there was more to this, i just can't remember it all verbatim. but,

It was like he knew exactly what i wanted to do and was here out of nowhere with this awesome advice to help me along with my choices. Like he looked like he was in his 80s, yet well versed in like everything. It was as though we had been talking about this for the past month or as though i knew him personally. It was a very engrossing conversation.

And then he left, but came back later to throw away his trash and get some water from the fountain.
Before he left he was like, "have a good life! :D"  hah i was like, "thanks man!, you too!" and then i felt like a doofus and corrected with, "....have a good.. day!"  He waved bye.

But i was like whoa. seriously. It felt nice to hear those words cause he knew exactly where i was going!
 While I've been getting a lot of support from my decision of late, i did get one negative a while back, and it brought me down. It brought up old fears.
I tried not to think about the negativity and just look past it. I said to myself that, I know that there are people like that in this world no matter where you go and no matter what you do.
You just have to rise above it, and focus on YOUR life. Who cares what that person thinks, I'm content with what i want to do.
I just like talking to people ya know? Hearing their problems, helping them come to conclusions. I get a sense of satisfaction. I'm not trying to sound wierd either. I just have this connection with people, and i want to pursue that and see where i can take it. =]


In other news, Lindsey is gone to camp counseling. I won't see her for two weeks =\
She's gone to teach the litte girls the do's and dont's of apple cider.
She has a sweet job. I'm happy for her. =]

I will miss her

So I finally went back to the gym today. It feels good, but i'm out of shape =\  
I don't think it will take long to get back in though. Like maybe a week, to be honest. I have a new strategic order of lifting I'm looking forward to trying out.

Also, I'm super happy. Through extensive searching of the internet for a charger for my battery that goes in my camera, I have found a replacement! And it's the official brand, and! it's not from Canon directly so it's not 50 dollars!
Here's how I found it,
I started at ebay and i didn't have much luck. There was some off brand that looked like cheap materials anyway. Then I typed in the same search into google and got some better results, I ended up going to a page that had the camera for sale and on that page there was a list of what all came with the camera, (cables,charger,etc.) and it had the name of the exact model for that charger. I said, "what if I just put this model  name into google?" and it totally worked! i found the exact model i had, and for only 29 dollars plus shipping which makes it like 34.50 or something. Still pricey, but still not $50 dollars. And it's authentic canon product! so i can have my camera back soon! So glad about that.

I still have pudding. Its cool :P  

I applied at best buy today, and i have a guy on the inside who referred me SO i hope i get in. And the position and location i applied for? is hiring. So Bad Ass.

And i'ts only been 2 days, but I really miss Lindsey.

I went to safeway to get a bowl so I could make Rindsey Pudding properly, and while I was there I was like, "I need to stop by the bank. I can't forget. I wonder if they have one in this store." They usually do, and they are usually wells fargo if not BoA (but that's mostly in fry's).
So I turned around and sho nuff there was one. I was like yeah! one stop baby. I love it when that happens.

So I made the pudding, but it's going to be a lil different than the Original Rindsey Pudding. For one I grabbed Banana Creme flavor instead of Vanilla. At the time I did not know it called for vanilla. So it's going to be way banana in your face tasting, but I still got bananas and wafers and extra creamy cream up in there. And I forgot to put the second layer of wafers on so they are on the top now. Either way its going to be good, it looks good. So I will know around 7 tonight? yus

So until then I leave you with this,

Pizza in the morning,
Pizza in the evening,
Pizza at supper time.

When pizza is on a bagel?
...you can eat pizza

anytime~

Back from Tucson. A great weekend. Just chillaxin and taking it easy. Which are the same thing actually. But i felt i needed to say two things. Yes.
Tucson is a really nice little place. Not really that little actually. I mean it's got like this small town vibe going. and it's not like overpopulated either, but it's still a cityish thing. It's nice. While leaving to head back Tempe ( I miss Rindsey) I spotted a Buffalo Exchange and i got to thinking, i've been meaning to go there as soon as i get some extra money to spend, cause i've been dying to get some new clothes. I see it and I'm like, "I have just aquired these extra funds but i will just go to the buffalo in tempe", and i was like, "well this one might have a better selection cause it's not right next to ASU and stuff." So i stopped and went shopping. Whether or not this one was different than Tempe's, I found some nice things that I'm super happy about. I got two pairs of shorts that are like longish and one kind of looks like highwaters, as Lindsey likes to put it. Then i got some really nice jeans that were originally from xpressmen(orwhatev) for only $10!!! STEAL 
Then there are these nice khakis from hollister that i think i paid 13 or 18 for? either way i made a killing. Then 3 bro-esque shirts that i will rock regardless of my bro status. And a nice t shirt. All for $115 dollars. I'm super happy about it. I've been needing/wanting some new clothes for quite some time now. I love that store!

So back in Tempe and i still haven't made my banana pudding. I need a bowl though... Gonna work on that tomorrow before work.

I miss Rindsey, i wont see her for a week. I had such a good time this weekend~



This summer is nice and i'm happy for a break and for a change, but i'm kind of ready to get back in to the swing of things. I need a full time job already. I want the swing of school things that is. Or rather, let me say, I'm looking forward to the fall semester in 3 months. Yeah.
anyway posshibly more later, ima go chill to the xtreme.
BRBS

Semi New stuff

So i've moved in to my new apartment. Old news for all of you guys most likely. It's nice, I have more room, more resources, i can use the living room again, i have my own bathroom, my kitchen is smaller -.-, but i have two closets!
My only concern was having to move again in october, which is when jon's lease is up and when we were gonna look into getting a house, but the other night he was like, "As much as I want to get a house, I don't want to move in october". I was like, "sweet! i'm glad you think so". Cause i dont want to move again in 5 months! so we're gonna wait prolly til a year from now which is much better. Besides we need to figure out new roommates. Cause all our friends left and graduated and stuff.

I don't see Pat anymore at all, which i'm kind of indifferent about. I mean he's a nice guy but he just would have qualities about him that would make you hate him as your roommate. I considered him to be my friend, we haven't done much in a long time since he started hanging with the Evan crew, as i like to call it. They're all cool too its just i think he was tired of me as a roommate as well, but whatev. Either way I think the fact the he has his own house will re-kindle old ties that were lost, or if there were even any or do i even really care. I dunno. Living by himself will also help him figure out so much about his financial irresponsibility that used to piss me off so. It just sucks he has to learn the hard way.

Deftones!

So onto different things. I saw deftones friday night! So kick ass, it went by too fast. I must see them again. It had been quite a while since I'd been to a concert of that nature. I think it's been a while period. I think the last one i went to was Godsmack and Metallica and that was back in 2004. Everyone just sat in the stands, there was no pit allowed. Wierd. But one like the Deftones, with the domino effect constantly present in the pit, it'd been a while like since 2003.

And now for another different topic,

I've decided to leave UAT, which has kind of been on my mind a lot lately. Ever since I changed majors from game design to graphic design I was second guessing my schooling. I love UAT a lot, but i sometimes don't agree with its teaching methods. I miss the traditional style of teaching, that I haven't had in so long. I only had that in my basic classes there. Everything else was ran like an online class but you still went to class, it's really annoying to me. Some people totally dig it, but not me.
Back when i changed from game design the decision was based upon the fact that i dont agree with what the video game industry is, to me it comes off as, you either a model or code junkie for a big coporate game company, or your working crunch time at some small independent company that no one has ever heard of. And to even get into one of those you have to work your ass off, and i cant stand the thought of sitting at a desk or a computer for 9-5+ just sitting. I have to be up and about moving around, lifting something maybe i dunno. I just feel like my life is wasting if i don't. And i also dont agree with how the industry is cutthroat like hollywood. Kind of like how starting actors try to get into the business so they go in as extras or something. You have to do similar stuff like that. It's like work your ass of to be a game tester for a while then maybe they will hire you to make some crappy ass game. So the best option is entrepreneurship or junkie, and i'm not up for those right now. While my own job does interest me at some point, i don't want to make video games. Cause truly, i like playing video games much more than making them.
Then there's graphic design. I got really good at this, and i enjoy it, i still do! but it comes off to me as a hobby or something. I honestly didn't see myself 5 years later having a graphic design, you could say well i just didn't believe in myself or something, but it just didn't feel like   me. I felt like i was missing something if i stopped with this choice, i felt like i had more i had to do. because once again that desk junkie feeling came up again. I saw the people i worked with and i saw how they prententious they got sometimes(with the exclusion of Lonnie and Brande of course =] ), i hated it! I really didn't want to be around that or become that, not that i thought i would, I just didn't feel like it was my place.
And there were some other things, not only is my family going through some things with a family member of mine, but my life feels like it was going nowhere. My grades were fine, i had As, but i chose to do very minimal work and i got an F in a class i loved and brought my GPA down to 3.13. I'm like what happened to my kick ass semesters like the 7 classes of 5 As and 2 Bs, where did my passion go? Am i just burned out? After 4 years of college, i'm still misdirected, i don't know what the hell i want and i feel like such a loser.

So my first thought was, i need a break. I need to rethink my whole life strategy and i need a break. So i said im going to take a leave of absence. Which i did.
And lately it has really been on my mind that technology, while i love it! isn't my career choice. It doesn't mean i give up on technology, i'm still a junkie by heart, dont get me wrong! but i just don't think it's my career.

The one thing i truly love, and that truly makes me content with life, is when im with groups of people.

The thing i enjoyed most at UAT? QCF, LAN parties, running the movie nights, running for Vice President. All these things involved people and organizing events and dealt with people. I love it! i dont know why!
It's also why i like the conference associate job at GDC so much. Not to mention, it's GDC.. heh but yeah. Also i seem to have this way with people that i can i offer. I just relate to people, and im not hindered by their problems or who they are. I really want to take that to the next level.
So i've decided to change again, and of course the old fears come up and try to hinder me, saying "dude you are changing majors again!?, don't be serious! you can't just keep this up! pick something and stay with it!" i'm like who do you think you are? it's my life and i can learn whatever the hell i want. My vision is way broad and i dont need your lip.
So yeah i'm changing schools. And my major? A completely different direction from what i was doing. And i haven't felt more sure in my major than i do now. I have to believe in myself and know this will work out. Not to mention there are so many factors, factors that i'm super excited about, that make this decision all the more worth it. Feeling good.

AND LASTLY
I TURN 23 IN 1 DAY!!!!!!!! and I GET TO SEE RINDSEY IN 1 DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH     SO EXCITED!

Moving out soon, but not til the exact last moment of the month. My friend's roommate isn't moving out til may 1st and i need to be out on the last day of april. Kind of silly if you ask me but whateva. I'm sure it won't be a problem, nor will moving even be an issue really. All that is going to be an issue is my desk. I'm going to need to dissassemble it and store it. I need to sell my bed too. If you or anyone j00 know of is looking for a bed let em know i'm selling a fairly new, well a year old, full size bed forrrrrrrrr about hrm... $150 dollars.

The main issue i'm going to have with moving in is where to put all my stuff, Jon already has a bed and desk and tv and stuff for the room I'm going to move into. So i'm going to have an extra desk and my tv and not a where to put them. I'm sure i'll figure it all out though, i just kind of want to get moved already. Moving everything else will be a breeze, since the apartment i'm moving into is just like 50 yards. So I'll be making more trips in exchange for not packing. Which i can deal.

The one thing I love about moving is the cleasing of junk that always happens with going through things. I seem to acquire mass amounts and i hold on to a lot of things i really truly don't need. <----[i almost spelled that word with a k, like kneed - wierd] anyway back on topic, a cleansing, which reminds me that i need to do the same to the trunk of my car because its full of crap. I've been way over due for that for some time now.
Speaking of cleansing, Pat needs to get his tail over and purge our bathroom and chris needs to clean his infected pots and pans. I'm honestly in a state right now where i can say i can't wait to move out. My roommates are really nice people but they suck at house responsibility.

So this it, my first entry. Cool.
This will be brief, seems like my first entries always are, maybe I'll end up writing so many details i'll actually have a worthy entry.


It's 3:13 AM i'm still up because i've been customizing~ and the time has left me. I don't have anything to do tomorrow except work at 5 so i can stay up all night right!? WRONG i have get up at 7:00 in the morning and die... Well not really, some random chick from fabcom communicaitons(the marketing company that markets for UAT) sent an email out to about 8 random students at UAT and i was one of them, apparently word is out that i'm the definintion of a geek ( or so i assume) and they want to interview me and take pictures for a piece in thier magazine, Geek 411.
    I reply with, first of all who are you and how did you select us. Then secondly if you know anything about geeks (especially our kind), is that we're not up at 7:30 in the morning. Especially not for pictures! Lametastic if you ask me. But for some reason i said yes because i want to be in a magazine, and i think it would be cool.
When do you get a chance like this? not that Geek411 is something big and huge (i mean i've never heard of it), but it's still got some coolness to it. I feel that if I passed it up i would regret it, so i signed up. It will most likely be stupid and then ill just leave and come home and go to bed, and sleep til work. Which will be a total sleep schedule fuck. But it's about that time of the year when it happens anyway. So i'm gonna go get my photos taken have this interview on how i'm a super cool geek and then yeah. But seriously how did they select us? Who gave them the information.

--pat is moving out i think, like this very moment he is packing. at 3:30 in the morning... i plan to sleep soon..--

back on track.
I was just going to stay up all night and then get up and go so i would be somewhat decent for pictures. but since i had like tons of food earlier(8 hours ago) and then some coffee drink after that, that's not going to happen. I got the food comatose trying to set in. Still.
So i'm gonna go most likely get some kick ass sleep and while in the middle of a kick ass dream wake up at 7 to my alarm. I seriously have this feeling that i'm going to sleep super well in a few, only to be cut off at the pinnacle of sumbler when i wake. That seems to happen whenever i have to get up early.
So yes i will try that now,
Goodnight everyone =)